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For Christmas I made few drawing beside my own fursona, before to started a new year with new resolution and started my new life like a adult and a women with a job and a life to doing I need to soothe my own wound by just posting something very much more important to me than my own pdp work and because I want to finish.
For now i want to wish to share my drawing to someone who I can count on her to listent just one last time event if it long as the months and hours i made to reflect every word and reflection about my relationship with her, I made this new account for starting a new life and drawing anything i want to draw, not yet my web comic which denounces harassment, hatred and gaming and how people could treat someone like a items, mistress or puppet without any care to the soul of the person inself or consent as well, a web comic to a little boi fall by harassement and lost any repear to rise again and a strong women how reduce to a doll by weakling beast. A Serious story about Sex, but i regress, is My objective once I'm enough good like her for drawing. And be honest with her and don't use the internet anonyma to hide and make me appear for someone else, isn't immature in all is just sick psycho move and I honestly don't want to bother her ever again, just here for giving a life leçon and some hope to eveyone how need before to start a new year for the few people how genuinely want to read this and know my objective and my reason to why.
Once I'd being in the internet with the objective to draw only for make friend and have fun without truly know my fate and my really potential, Honestly my autism I hide did not help me for progressing much in social relationship, I know few people being glad have few drawing from me but don't event take the time to said "Thank you" and somtime directly block me withous told me "why?", Or worse juste directly ignoring myself by the famous "Silent treatment" So I just result the idea i'm not good enough to drawing like people i meet in IRL said and harasse me for like TMNT or "Kingdom Heart is for kid cause, Mickey Moose in the game" Well I just give up for drawing, "They're right after all! People don't care i give them free drawing and i draw so badly i have to reconsidering my hobby...".
Yes I give up and i focus in some literary work, I became a writer, good in my language but very bad in english before, so I take on the recommandation of a few friend and starter to write english story to somewhere after few interraction I meet someone surprising good, Gamer2 i meet her quickly because I like ABDL stuff and honestly her old drawing have something Innocent she's stopped to have in some of her recent drawing (event if she's progressing a lot and i'm proud of her but once more i regress) I meet her while she's write a journal about "Popularity or sincerity" She talk about her story and backround, once i finishing to read...she's take the choice to don't give up and continue to drawing beside the fact she's getting unfairly harassed by bully coward.
She's brave and have a it has a value that I did not have. "She's a good person and deserve someone to encouraging her no matter decision she's take! She's want a friend!" it what i said in my head but without this really attention to became one, I sharing a part of my own story with her and she's asking me to never giving up, and she's said something resting in my mind and make me feel better with my own drawing,
October happend and i having the good occasion to learn about her, then i learn...sad stuff sometime (ironically lived the next year...) But this bad thing don't make her her give up her own drawing and her identity just a bit, but I know from my actual experience what is like me.
She's strong and admirable fight against adversiting event if she's get harassed in 2019 by coward, she still continue, I wanted to became like her event if my own transexual identity being present a lot before i meet her.
(for quick my mother treat me without the truly attention to help me to grow up and dress me like girly stuff, but the day she's stoped and said "you not a real one stop it" I guess that give me a trauma i still don't cured for now...)
anyway I spend good time with her once i share some french leçon and talk about video game but my miss experience about english and my own egoist make me blind about my goal basically and my wish to take caring on her without realisting she's spending more time with me than with other just for helping me to get better and sometime she's event forcing her about some subject i became too into it, for being quick I became a spoiled brat, and I don't event realising i treat her like my own mother than sister, I don't realising yet but i abadon her by using my "sissy fetish" for forcing her to call me girl than man, i harassing her for this than trying to truly change my identity gender...psychologist don't help me and all i did is just walking out my house dress like a girl for feelling a bit like myself, lie to other about the gender i have.
and one day after starting the next year this unfamous 2020 I've started the year with a traumatic thing i don't want to talk yet that put me into depression, turning me into someone how stopped to being sub baby and more verbal and physically violent, and all opposite to what i'm and rejecting all kidness from me to became heartless...sadly gamer2 take everything in her face, and i block her and hide my transexual identity and what happened in this day. she's never blocked me but...she's stopped to talk with me, right reaction after all what i said and done to her but i harassing her. I cannot deny i trying to come back and heal to my own depression too but after some jalousie about a story that will not have to being happenend I definitevely go to far.
In my heart i became heartless and fill of anger and guilt to myslef, so i run away and hate myself to lost someone i recently learning she's considering me like her little..."brother" and just wanted to wait before to change my gender for don't doing something stupid, I hated someone i loved so badly i blind the fact she's just wanted i come back to reason and being the right little one she's meet before...one day after a long leçon of life about consent and people to submit, I realise what happened this february arent happened because i draw abdl stuff or i love and want to being a girl but because two "furry-hater" wanted to have sex with a girl and sadly mother nature give something in the brain of us a something how make us unconscious to moving by a strong moment of shock and so we just cannot take back anything and forced to submit without your will. (thank mother nature i know why humain don't give you that much respect you deserve for) and that happenend to me event if i already fought on the street.
yeah is a sad story for Christmas story but like i said is a story for hope, my father being here for talk me about this once he realising what happen to me the last year and i well hide to me, but he told me the true valor to a women and men have.
I don't want to being forgotent for what happen with gamer2 that don't give any excuse to forgive me and retalk to me with all of my lie and coward move and the fact i more treat her like a doll than a friend...but I miss her a lot like i miss my mother, I prefer to talk with her again than seeing any of her drawing ever again because she's not a simple artist how draw perfectly any character with a wonderful color combinaison, not a Queen who draw anyone she's dom people how are enough close to her, More alive than a Angel of Death, She's more than that! She's Kimberly the Fox Women artist who love her family like a really sister, encouragin her family to surpsassing them for grow up and don't let them down event if she's hurted her feeling by them, never give up and determinate to make her own web comic and progressing to her life and being happy with her FA Family!! and give her chance to anyone who want to understant the artist behind the picture, she's not a transwomen how deserving harassment like me and like what i see she's taked! She's on the bottom to my heart my big sister and I love her no matter what is happened and what will happened!
So please if you not familiar to her being kind with her for me she's the sister caring i never have and certainly the perfect friend to anyone and the perfect Wife to anyone how could wish her hand, Don't let her down, She's a gamer how love to sharing her stuff and i'm sure if you not into ABDL stuff she will love to draw video game and manga stuff or event enjoining more doing this than draw the same diaper stuff, give her her chance to being your friend you won't regret this to have a women like her in your family.
It Christmas period I remember the gift she's made to us and her last quote "sometime i wonder if you okay and what are you doing", sadly i'd being a spoiled bratz and then broken her heart by jalousie and turning our relatioship toxic by harassement and fear abusing and promiss broken, and my love for her killing my good attention I have to her but is the same love for her I've come back here ready to have my own goal, it my love to understand her true meaning to desesparating asking me to grow up and to find my own identity and this little sister love to became like her...maybe one day I wanna give myself the right to draw myself in the same flag picture with her for the pride day after I retire my dragon balls...i've got milk but i don't think is enough for the women title yet, But tonight I stopped to shacking to my paper for draw and I never feel happy to draw with hope for a new year!
Event if I'm big late for the occasio ">.>
I'm back from the depression, I'm back from the Death! and don't care what people think i'm are, I'm Alice the Silly Bunny transe (MTF) Autist with full furry fetish of ABDL Sissy and other furry stuff but also a gamer who love to playing video game and talk about movie and how much fictionnal world need more credible strong women or minority representation and for my story and for my sister I wanna make my gaming stuff and great web comic to give people fun story and I won't Abandon my first promess to her, I Won't missing this upportunity to wishe her "Happy Birthday" or "Merry Chrismast" ever again!
Merry Chrismas Kimberly I've give her a big hug I won't talk to you again beside Christmas and your Birthday until you want event if apart of me want share few FF9 TMNT and stuff with you but for now merry chrismas, you will see everyone can gain back they're confidence you can do it too without drawing this! :)
For now i want to wish to share my drawing to someone who I can count on her to listent just one last time event if it long as the months and hours i made to reflect every word and reflection about my relationship with her, I made this new account for starting a new life and drawing anything i want to draw, not yet my web comic which denounces harassment, hatred and gaming and how people could treat someone like a items, mistress or puppet without any care to the soul of the person inself or consent as well, a web comic to a little boi fall by harassement and lost any repear to rise again and a strong women how reduce to a doll by weakling beast. A Serious story about Sex, but i regress, is My objective once I'm enough good like her for drawing. And be honest with her and don't use the internet anonyma to hide and make me appear for someone else, isn't immature in all is just sick psycho move and I honestly don't want to bother her ever again, just here for giving a life leçon and some hope to eveyone how need before to start a new year for the few people how genuinely want to read this and know my objective and my reason to why.
Once I'd being in the internet with the objective to draw only for make friend and have fun without truly know my fate and my really potential, Honestly my autism I hide did not help me for progressing much in social relationship, I know few people being glad have few drawing from me but don't event take the time to said "Thank you" and somtime directly block me withous told me "why?", Or worse juste directly ignoring myself by the famous "Silent treatment" So I just result the idea i'm not good enough to drawing like people i meet in IRL said and harasse me for like TMNT or "Kingdom Heart is for kid cause, Mickey Moose in the game" Well I just give up for drawing, "They're right after all! People don't care i give them free drawing and i draw so badly i have to reconsidering my hobby...".
Yes I give up and i focus in some literary work, I became a writer, good in my language but very bad in english before, so I take on the recommandation of a few friend and starter to write english story to somewhere after few interraction I meet someone surprising good, Gamer2 i meet her quickly because I like ABDL stuff and honestly her old drawing have something Innocent she's stopped to have in some of her recent drawing (event if she's progressing a lot and i'm proud of her but once more i regress) I meet her while she's write a journal about "Popularity or sincerity" She talk about her story and backround, once i finishing to read...she's take the choice to don't give up and continue to drawing beside the fact she's getting unfairly harassed by bully coward.
She's brave and have a it has a value that I did not have. "She's a good person and deserve someone to encouraging her no matter decision she's take! She's want a friend!" it what i said in my head but without this really attention to became one, I sharing a part of my own story with her and she's asking me to never giving up, and she's said something resting in my mind and make me feel better with my own drawing,
October happend and i having the good occasion to learn about her, then i learn...sad stuff sometime (ironically lived the next year...) But this bad thing don't make her her give up her own drawing and her identity just a bit, but I know from my actual experience what is like me.
She's strong and admirable fight against adversiting event if she's get harassed in 2019 by coward, she still continue, I wanted to became like her event if my own transexual identity being present a lot before i meet her.
(for quick my mother treat me without the truly attention to help me to grow up and dress me like girly stuff, but the day she's stoped and said "you not a real one stop it" I guess that give me a trauma i still don't cured for now...)
anyway I spend good time with her once i share some french leçon and talk about video game but my miss experience about english and my own egoist make me blind about my goal basically and my wish to take caring on her without realisting she's spending more time with me than with other just for helping me to get better and sometime she's event forcing her about some subject i became too into it, for being quick I became a spoiled brat, and I don't event realising i treat her like my own mother than sister, I don't realising yet but i abadon her by using my "sissy fetish" for forcing her to call me girl than man, i harassing her for this than trying to truly change my identity gender...psychologist don't help me and all i did is just walking out my house dress like a girl for feelling a bit like myself, lie to other about the gender i have.
and one day after starting the next year this unfamous 2020 I've started the year with a traumatic thing i don't want to talk yet that put me into depression, turning me into someone how stopped to being sub baby and more verbal and physically violent, and all opposite to what i'm and rejecting all kidness from me to became heartless...sadly gamer2 take everything in her face, and i block her and hide my transexual identity and what happened in this day. she's never blocked me but...she's stopped to talk with me, right reaction after all what i said and done to her but i harassing her. I cannot deny i trying to come back and heal to my own depression too but after some jalousie about a story that will not have to being happenend I definitevely go to far.
In my heart i became heartless and fill of anger and guilt to myslef, so i run away and hate myself to lost someone i recently learning she's considering me like her little..."brother" and just wanted to wait before to change my gender for don't doing something stupid, I hated someone i loved so badly i blind the fact she's just wanted i come back to reason and being the right little one she's meet before...one day after a long leçon of life about consent and people to submit, I realise what happened this february arent happened because i draw abdl stuff or i love and want to being a girl but because two "furry-hater" wanted to have sex with a girl and sadly mother nature give something in the brain of us a something how make us unconscious to moving by a strong moment of shock and so we just cannot take back anything and forced to submit without your will. (thank mother nature i know why humain don't give you that much respect you deserve for) and that happenend to me event if i already fought on the street.
yeah is a sad story for Christmas story but like i said is a story for hope, my father being here for talk me about this once he realising what happen to me the last year and i well hide to me, but he told me the true valor to a women and men have.
I don't want to being forgotent for what happen with gamer2 that don't give any excuse to forgive me and retalk to me with all of my lie and coward move and the fact i more treat her like a doll than a friend...but I miss her a lot like i miss my mother, I prefer to talk with her again than seeing any of her drawing ever again because she's not a simple artist how draw perfectly any character with a wonderful color combinaison, not a Queen who draw anyone she's dom people how are enough close to her, More alive than a Angel of Death, She's more than that! She's Kimberly the Fox Women artist who love her family like a really sister, encouragin her family to surpsassing them for grow up and don't let them down event if she's hurted her feeling by them, never give up and determinate to make her own web comic and progressing to her life and being happy with her FA Family!! and give her chance to anyone who want to understant the artist behind the picture, she's not a transwomen how deserving harassment like me and like what i see she's taked! She's on the bottom to my heart my big sister and I love her no matter what is happened and what will happened!
So please if you not familiar to her being kind with her for me she's the sister caring i never have and certainly the perfect friend to anyone and the perfect Wife to anyone how could wish her hand, Don't let her down, She's a gamer how love to sharing her stuff and i'm sure if you not into ABDL stuff she will love to draw video game and manga stuff or event enjoining more doing this than draw the same diaper stuff, give her her chance to being your friend you won't regret this to have a women like her in your family.
It Christmas period I remember the gift she's made to us and her last quote "sometime i wonder if you okay and what are you doing", sadly i'd being a spoiled bratz and then broken her heart by jalousie and turning our relatioship toxic by harassement and fear abusing and promiss broken, and my love for her killing my good attention I have to her but is the same love for her I've come back here ready to have my own goal, it my love to understand her true meaning to desesparating asking me to grow up and to find my own identity and this little sister love to became like her...maybe one day I wanna give myself the right to draw myself in the same flag picture with her for the pride day after I retire my dragon balls...i've got milk but i don't think is enough for the women title yet, But tonight I stopped to shacking to my paper for draw and I never feel happy to draw with hope for a new year!
Event if I'm big late for the occasio ">.>
I'm back from the depression, I'm back from the Death! and don't care what people think i'm are, I'm Alice the Silly Bunny transe (MTF) Autist with full furry fetish of ABDL Sissy and other furry stuff but also a gamer who love to playing video game and talk about movie and how much fictionnal world need more credible strong women or minority representation and for my story and for my sister I wanna make my gaming stuff and great web comic to give people fun story and I won't Abandon my first promess to her, I Won't missing this upportunity to wishe her "Happy Birthday" or "Merry Chrismast" ever again!
Merry Chrismas Kimberly I've give her a big hug I won't talk to you again beside Christmas and your Birthday until you want event if apart of me want share few FF9 TMNT and stuff with you but for now merry chrismas, you will see everyone can gain back they're confidence you can do it too without drawing this! :)
Category Artwork (Traditional) / Doodle
Species Fox (Other)
Gender Trans (Female)
Size 1280 x 960px
File Size 230.5 kB
I haven't given any news since last year, I should have been more active here but I had to settle a lot of things in private and got a job despite my physical and psychological differences but first i have to do this.
I didn't do anything for Christmas because I really didn't know it would have been just useless.
I don't want to do drama. I'm making this message because the psychologist told me to do it... honestly I should have told you about my disabilities rather than keeping it to myself, but that does not justify my behavior towards you and my immaturity before I really understood my handicaps and the pain of becoming a transsexual.
I learned the pain of being called a "fake lady", of being called a perverted sissy, and seeing gay guys act/talk like ladies without going through that pain as my case.
I have suffered for a long time in recent years, especially since 2020 when guys from my city learn that. but i solved the problem despite my biggest loss = the right to be considered as your little brother.
my English was bad very bad I wrote so badly that I pretended to be a person who fetishes you as a mistresse who have to Sissy me... And i don't event realise my comportement making thing like this and worse. I was bad and immature and more importantly a bad little sister for you.
All I really wanted was to be like you...a very brave lady who will never abandon someone she loves and consider family, I was alone and without knowing what to do in life wondering if it was better to give up... then I met you a woman who had never given up and who had incredible qualities and a remarkable drawing style, I knew I wanted to become like you once I meet you.
You and Star even told me that I had the potential...but I messed up all of our relationship trying to become a woman and mis-expressing myself.
now there is nothing but regret and...a bitter feeling every time i look at your work without compensating for it say "they are healthy and happy, focus on your work and one day you will post here when you will have time."
I had to concentrate every day other than on these drawings keep them only for me and taste the burn out... worked until I burned myself to ashes that's all I did with this potential , worked for other things than to earn wages.
I advanced slowly on my own. then I made some friends who stayed...but I send them a bad image of me because of my altered hormones that change my mind.
I must do everything to stop being like this and be able to become a great artist, even this must take time. I would have liked things between us to have gone better if I had been mature enough, I lost all desire to draw when the sketch was canceled then my gifts which were useless.
I know it's not worth saying anything publicly I don't want any drama and things that could hurt you don't deserve this but I place this because I can't keep it to myself anymore...
I still love you like a big sister, the one who has the self-confidence that allows me to want to draw, I'll never forget the little good time I spent drawing and writing determined to want make you proud of me or the moment you made me appear in your Christmas present in 2019... but it's all gone.
I have to stop thinking about it despite the remorse, my English still sucks but one day when I can finally start posting my more serious stuff I can finally get close to what I want to be and maybe even in the idea people would say "He's not a real lady but at least he draws well"
I know it's too late to reconcile with you or Star but I'll never forget you two, It was cool to have at least tried to be friends with Star and your little brother.
So Good bye Kimmy you came at the right time for I do not to cut my life short and that i will never forget but now there is no more interaction between us so i have to move on and become a valuable person like you as a should trying in 2020, Merry Christmas Kimmy You are the big sister I never had when I was really little! Take care you deserve it big sister and farewell.
I didn't do anything for Christmas because I really didn't know it would have been just useless.
I don't want to do drama. I'm making this message because the psychologist told me to do it... honestly I should have told you about my disabilities rather than keeping it to myself, but that does not justify my behavior towards you and my immaturity before I really understood my handicaps and the pain of becoming a transsexual.
I learned the pain of being called a "fake lady", of being called a perverted sissy, and seeing gay guys act/talk like ladies without going through that pain as my case.
I have suffered for a long time in recent years, especially since 2020 when guys from my city learn that. but i solved the problem despite my biggest loss = the right to be considered as your little brother.
my English was bad very bad I wrote so badly that I pretended to be a person who fetishes you as a mistresse who have to Sissy me... And i don't event realise my comportement making thing like this and worse. I was bad and immature and more importantly a bad little sister for you.
All I really wanted was to be like you...a very brave lady who will never abandon someone she loves and consider family, I was alone and without knowing what to do in life wondering if it was better to give up... then I met you a woman who had never given up and who had incredible qualities and a remarkable drawing style, I knew I wanted to become like you once I meet you.
You and Star even told me that I had the potential...but I messed up all of our relationship trying to become a woman and mis-expressing myself.
now there is nothing but regret and...a bitter feeling every time i look at your work without compensating for it say "they are healthy and happy, focus on your work and one day you will post here when you will have time."
I had to concentrate every day other than on these drawings keep them only for me and taste the burn out... worked until I burned myself to ashes that's all I did with this potential , worked for other things than to earn wages.
I advanced slowly on my own. then I made some friends who stayed...but I send them a bad image of me because of my altered hormones that change my mind.
I must do everything to stop being like this and be able to become a great artist, even this must take time. I would have liked things between us to have gone better if I had been mature enough, I lost all desire to draw when the sketch was canceled then my gifts which were useless.
I know it's not worth saying anything publicly I don't want any drama and things that could hurt you don't deserve this but I place this because I can't keep it to myself anymore...
I still love you like a big sister, the one who has the self-confidence that allows me to want to draw, I'll never forget the little good time I spent drawing and writing determined to want make you proud of me or the moment you made me appear in your Christmas present in 2019... but it's all gone.
I have to stop thinking about it despite the remorse, my English still sucks but one day when I can finally start posting my more serious stuff I can finally get close to what I want to be and maybe even in the idea people would say "He's not a real lady but at least he draws well"
I know it's too late to reconcile with you or Star but I'll never forget you two, It was cool to have at least tried to be friends with Star and your little brother.
So Good bye Kimmy you came at the right time for I do not to cut my life short and that i will never forget but now there is no more interaction between us so i have to move on and become a valuable person like you as a should trying in 2020, Merry Christmas Kimmy You are the big sister I never had when I was really little! Take care you deserve it big sister and farewell.
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