This update is more aimed at those who have followed me for a long time or come across wondering why stuff is so scattered and whatnot.

Last few years ive jumped platform to platform also while deleting artworks from online viewing along the way. Several times this was for personal reasons but other times just a bit out of spite for being hurt by select few over the years. Lots of time has past and honestly either you hate me still in some way, or we've prolly both talked about it and made decent enough peace.

Who i feel bad for though is those who have been super nice to me the entire time and Ive not been nice to, or just ignored. I'll be honest I am a social butterfly, im extroverted; But my problem is that I have a lot of trauma and generally afraid of talking to people to other looners online that ended up sharing spaces with those who hurt me in the past. Countless times i'd look though profiles to see if people followed someone or interacted with people, a really not cool thing to do I admit, but its what I did because of paranoia and anxiety. This is not really an excuse for those ive treated badly in the past.

Another thing is that ponballoon as an account was not my main but slowly became my normal social account. Its because this is a huge part of who I am and what makes me happy. These days im p open about fetish stuff when around other adults that want to know more, but i never really bring it up the way I used to in the past.

So at some point I need to compile and label all my art I have saved, and make some zip or something with a spreadsheet on this kinda thing. Id like to just have that for myself and generally available. There will be some pieces still ommited either because I feel uncomfortable reposting them, and ill decide to list those on the spreadsheet or not. I do not have my art organized very well rn, im horrible and just spam my keyboard and hope the filename isnt taken yet when i saved at one point. bad habbits woops.

Anyways, I will do my best to respond to stuff when I can when directly addressed here or in DM's but I cannot guarantee im like a anxious mess and dont end up responding anyways. 🎈♥️