I have to say this has been one of the worst sicknesses I have ever encountered in my life..one of the most painful and legitimately made me feel like I could die any moment...…Anyone that knows me knows I took a lot of precautions trying to keep safe… wearing masks...spraying down everything… avoiding crowds.. But yet I still got this crap...even the best prepared is still at risk..

It started a few weeks ago when myself and Dylan were going to a funeral in Dalton GA for a family member who had passed away… It was already hard enough dealing with this and at first I thought Dylan just had allergies but the cough kept getting worse and worse to the point I fussed at him to go to the doctor.. Finally getting through to him he needed to go I was right ...really sick of being right.. He had Phemonia as I figured. I have had that cough so many times its unmistakable to me.. Yet he seemed to think it was everything but. The point is I made sure he got the help..He was not tested for Covid-19 and realize he should of been.. They gave him powerful antibiotics and last I heard hes still recovering too.


I was kind of feeling slightly off Monday but nothing too bothersome aside from the normal. It is normal for allergies at this time of year for me and by the time I got home Wendsday I was starting to feel a bit icky too. I started violently coughing then realized I was also coughing up a lot of blood.. I was running a fairly high fever around 102.5 to 100.5…. Out of all the things I looked up I couldn’t find really anyone who had the mass blood coming up but then again my lungs are already damaged and have been from years of repeated bouts of pneumonia and broncitus….

I really have strong words against Huntsville Hospital because I had my family take me .. I can’t breathe i'm struggling not to even just fall out in the chair because Im dizzy with sever vertigo and couldn’t even talk right because my heads scrambled.. They did get me into a room fairly quick which isn’t the issue. What pissed me off is that they tested me and i TOLD THEM the situation and should have been given Antibotics then..They were ALSO informed I had been coughing up blood which they showed no concern... They did a shitty back Xray and for me taking it from the back doesnt work very well they always needed to from the front and sides.. They said there was a slight elevation but nothing they seemed worried about unlike me who knew I felt rough. This night I do admit the staff were nice and made me feel at ease I just wish better care had been taken to address this issue…

I was sent home and I continued to get worse fever constantly shooting up passed 103, soon started loosing my taste, couldnt breath , whole body hurting like i had been beat in a pit. My chest hurt and feels tight like an elephant is sitting on it. The chills were horrid and have had to use my cane just to get to the bathroom…

By Sunday I was back in the ER with a extremely nasty Festering Infection, Covid, Phemonia and UTI… if they had given me the antibiotics Wendsday this would not have gotten so out of control and I wouldn’t of had to suffer like this.

This visit was the worst and there were a lot of things that should have never happened and small things that could of been avoided.. The staff were not that friendly but thats kind of common at that crap location.. If i didnt have to go there i wouldnt…

I was forced to wear a thick face mask when I was already struggling to breath and felt like i was drowning even though i had my cloth one that at least let me breathe some.. I had brought my plush dog for some comfort because by now i was in tears and anxiety was out the roof. They were cold about it and tore it away from me which just made me feel worse..they didnt even tell me why just took it..…I understand if there's guidelines or whatever but they did not have to be that way...It didn’t help either I was also running above 103 temp at the time which did not help my mind from being a bit delusional..but that was after they took it from me like that…

I wasnt even told till later till why.. Apparently something to do with mites but yet you can buy a plush from the gift shop no problem sooo..

It may seem stupid to some people or others may not understand but that plush dog is a reminder and comfort of a dog I had when I was younger named Tiny. She always was there when I felt bad and was a sweetheart.. Dad gave her to me and it was just comforting when I am in so much pain and discomfort.. She died of Parvo despite our best efforts to save her… the neighbors did not tell us their dogs were all infested until it was too late.. We didnt know.. So yes that dog plush is important to me.

I finally get back in there and im NOT happy about being locked in a room with no bathroom.. If anyone knows how bad utis are they make you have to freaking pee… i about pissed myself twice because it took them 30 minutes to help me get up to use the bathroom in a pan. They at first tried to have me use this thing obviously ment for a man and Im sorry but im not a guy and someone of my size and as weak as I was could not use that thing… it isnt meant for women.. Its not my freaking fault they didnt have basic bathroom supplies and at the time I couldnt get up on my own due to the vertigo and head spinning all over the place… I got told there were other patients and i flat out told them they obviously dont know what a uti is and how it makes incontinence worse.. I cant exactly ya know do it myself and im sorry they were ill prepaired.. They did not even have the basic toilet that could of been moved next to the bed for me to just kind of slide on to and go..

My point is no one should be treated like this and for freak sakes having no bathroom how would this make any of you feel???? Having a freaking way to take a piss seems like a basic human right to me…

Eventually they gave me oxygen and it really really really helped a lot I could actually relax a little bit and breathe some.. I wish i could have rested but that really wasn't happening… between the machine constantly dinging and the other tests we all know how that is. They had so much trouble getting blood out of me which didnt make it any easier but that wasnt their fault..i was just so dehydrated..

The worst thing that sent me off the handle was the fact that the equipment both in the room and catscan machine were both malfunctioning. This is unacceptable.. All though it was probably 10 minutes laying on my back even now as I write this feels like i'm drowning and suffocating and it was just awful… the machine kept messing up and not working leaving me laying there like that for a unnecessarily long amount of time to the point I eventually just begged them to stop ..even with the oxygen with that did not help at all.. Feeling like your dying on a table will kick in anyones sever anxiety and i couldnt help but to just sob.. They were not comforting in anyway and didnt even get a sorry about being put through that and their malfunctioning equipment… I was pissed off they didnt seem to care at all and were unprofessional in my eyes. Huntsville Hospital had no reason to have those problems with bathrooms or that machine ...just glad they managed to get the one scan to see i had pneumonia i did not want to go through that again.. And having to get that dye twice was not fun..

This is something that should NEVER have happened to anybody..why dont you put yourself in my shoes and I am sure you would agree... Guess its good I wasnt on death's step because id of been another statistic.. It is now Wendsday and things have not really gotten any easier… My chest is still incredibly stiff and painful… my whole body hurts , the fever has been incredibly hard to control and keeps shooting up over 103…I can not get it down below 100 at any given time and usually is around 101 to 102.. I keep taking tylanol and the antibiotics but there hasnt been much of an approval. I cant eat hardly now and have no taste.. I still get bouts of vertigo and dizziness making my cane necessary to even go to the bathroom.. I am still having painful coughing as well as coughing up blood still...I have been resting a lot and really hoping things ease up at least some but I have a long ways to go… This mess is no joke and I am just hoping I don’t have further lung damage… they already are screwed up… sigh..

If i get through all this.. I am going to celebrate just being alive.. It doesnt help that my poor kitties both have a cold..seem peridot brought home one from when she came back from the vet but the good news is i have someone who can get her the medication…

I guess thats about all I have to say and to clarify.. Some people think just a tiny improvement in things are totally better..let me tell you that is far from the truth… I wish it were the case but its not.. This crap is serious and if hearing it from me isnt enough perhaps you should go listen to other peoples stories..

All this being said.. I have to lay back down and going back to sleep. Thank you all for the support and understanding… this is going to be a long walk..