I'm just going to say it...
I really don't feel safe to post artwork here anymore. I mainly say this because, yes I've done a lot of base fills and I could upload them all with the commissions my GFs have gotten me, but at this point, I know people stalk my page on here, I know they're keeping tabs to just keep things going, but I'm done stressing and worrying that if I post something, just because of how I might word things, it could cause issues for others or cause problems for me.
So I'm just not going to post on here any more.
I tried to overcome this feeling before and move past it, but than I got solid proof on my feelings and I haven't been able to shake it over the last few months. Living situation didn't help and the family BS didn't either...so with that said and off my chest, I'll leave this here:

I'm beyond tired of certain things and the feelings it brings along with it.
I've been running on fumes and being burnt out for a good bit now, going off autopilot for so long.
I've been braking so much I'm not even sure who I truly am anymore.
I'm not prefect or anything of that sort.
I'll even admit it and say I'm not alright mentally and I've been showing more that's behind this mask, because me being a system isn't a sudden thing, or a new thing, I've just been selective on who I tell and I have my reasons for that.
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I guess I'm just trying to say that I'm just done with some of the bullshit this site brings anymore and the feelings I'm stuck with afterwards. I did enjoy this site a few years ago, but anymore that joy is dead and just keeps getting beaten any time I try to fuel that flame. I have friends I share my art with in discord and I'm content with that anymore, I actually enjoy making my friends happy when I use their characters in a base...
I better stop now before this becomes a rambling mess and not understandable to anyone...

Peace out, and be safe out there everyone...this world isn't what we'd dreamed of as kids...it's a world full of hate and anger...so try and help each other out and lift each other up in this crazy time, and maybe we'll see each other on the other side